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Tuesday, 5 April 2016

1.5 Fear


   When we'd managed to make it to the hospital, things thankfully got much easier and less panicked. Several hours later little Aria was born, and a few more hours after that we were allowed home. A few days later we eventually arrived home. Well, not literally, but damn. I've never seen anyone drive so slow! Ernesto's driving caused an argument... I don't think he realised how uncomfortable I felt. I'd just pushed a 9 pound baby out! I was exhausted! And there he was driving 20 below the limit all the way across the city. I suppose it was sweet that he didn't want to risk his newborn daughter being in an accident, but I was snappy, and when we got home he went all sulky and went to his little garden. There isn't even anything to do in the garden, it's coming up to winter now, but I was glad of the few minutes alone with my new baby. She's gorgeous, got her daddies eyes and mouth, but my nose... I think. She's a little too young to tell.

    Of course, having two kids did have its downsides, especially in this tiny crappy trailer... I didn't mind the sleepless nights so much, and I know Ernesto didn't either, but I felt awful for Geneva being up all night and then having to be at school all day. I really hoped her grades wouldn't suffer. I know I'd never even bothered attending school, but I wanted better for Geneva. I worried whether her situation at home affected her making friends in a town where everyone was richer than us. Did she hate that everyone else had two parents? The same parents as their siblings? Did she wish me and Ernesto were married? I know I did. I just wished I knew how to ask her these questions in a way she felt she could answer honestly without offending me. But then again, she was a tough girl, she's probably not even bothered.


   The familiar crackle, the roar, the hiss, the heat. All I'd wanted to do was show Ernesto how much I loved him by making him a romantic dinner. Now the girls were in bed at the far end of a burning wooden cabin with no exit.
   Maybe they won't wake up. Then they won't feel a thing as they burn to death peacefully in their sleep... My idiotic brain told me. I wanted to go save them, but I was frozen to the spot in fear. Some mother you are, too chicken to go save your kids lives... I couldn't help it. We'd had six housefires as a kid. Every time Sunset Valley Fire Department had showed up in no time. But Starlight Shores Fire Department was the other side of the city. Nobody's coming, it's been hours... I knew it hadn't really. It had been moments but it had seemed like a lifetime. See? This is why Ernesto doesn't want to marry you. He can have much safer fun with some blonde chick in a mansion... I didn't even understand why my brain had thrown that one at me, it had nothing to do with fire, but I suppose your mind does stupid things in panic mode.

   I looked around me. Ernesto was by my side, Geneva was here too. And SSFD had arrived. I don't know whether I'd blacked out or if I'd been too deep in terrified thought to notice them arrive. Ernesto is in his underwear... My brain told me. He saw the fire while he was with that other woman, didn't even have time to get changed... But that would be a good thing. He loves me enough to leave her behind to make sure I'm ok. I stared at him. He looked terrified... But they were swim trunks, and that made me breathe a sigh of relief. We all covered our ears at the boom of the fire extinguisher. But I still heard Geneva scream...

   "I'M ON FIRE!!!" She screamed. I screamed. The fireman turned to me.
   "Get her in the shower!" He demanded, a little too calmly. Luckily, Geneva heard him. I was still frozen to the floor.

   "I'm doing it!" Geneva screamed to me as she ran for the bathroom. In all the fires I'd seen, I'd never seen anyone on fire before. My poor daughter, I desperately wanted to go help her, but I really couldn't move. The fireman soon got the blaze under control, and once the flames had gone he double-checked that it was all out, before leaving, telling us to be more careful on the way out.

   The house was still warm from the flames, but Ernesto seemed really cold.
   "I'm sorry." I mumbled, knowing nothing I could say would fix the destruction I'd caused. "I only wanted to make you a romantic dinner..." I reached out to touch him, and he batted my hand away.
   "Just leave the cooking to me in future." He snapped, and continued to stare at the charred remains of our kitchen.


   The next morning was Geneva's birthday. We hadn't had time to scrub the kitchen yet, but she wanted to have her cake for breakfast. My tiny baby was becoming a teen... I couldn't really believe it. It wouldn't be long before Aria was a toddler either, it made me feel old...

   For her birthday, we got her a chipmunk we found outside. She named him chip. This trailer is too small for all these sims and pets. There's four of us crammed into a tiny bedroom, and then two huge cages taking up valuble space... We've started looking for new places, but we can't afford anything bigger.

   And I think we're going to need that bigger place...


Lol. looksie at what the kind fireman did...
 He cleared my leaves!! Haha! He stayed about 20 hours. It was silly. But I got Nazari to burn the piles of leaves so he'd feel at home. lol.

Also, if the fire-scene seemed really... not like Nazari, it was supposed to. Being the mistress has caught up on her, and growing up without a father and with a mother she didn't get on with, she has issues forming relationships as it is, without the added trust issues. I wanted her fears she hides away to come to the surface for a moment. She'd got a tough shell, but she's still really young and has a lot of baggage hidden away.

I feel now would be a good time to reveal everyone's traits. lol. They weren't a secret, I just forgot until now.

Nazari Ursine: Loves to swim, Virtuoso, Never-nude (UGH!), Mooch and Easily impressed. I didn't get to choose any of her traits as she never went to school. Her favourites are Chinese music (but she's a pop-star....), stir-fry (fits with the music, perhaps she ought to travel..) and the colour black (although she wears white. lol.)

Ernesto Gonzalez: Ernesto is a pre-made from Starlight Shores. He's a Party animal, Hot headed (which I've been sort of playing on, not in a huge violent way though), Childish (which is why he gets on with the kids so well), Mooch and Lucky. His favourites are Latin music, Ratatouille, and Spice Brown.
Ernesto also has some weird obsession with playing the lottery, he rolls wishes for it constantly, but despite his lucky trait, he never wins. lol. (If he was to win, I'd familyfunds it away, it's too cheaty, I just wanted to see how much you can win off the lottery)

Geneva Ursine: Genius (in contrast to her illiterate mother), Artistic, Mooch and Lucky (Yes, everyone so far is a bloody mooch!). Her favourites are Beach Party, Vegetarian Chilli and the colour Orange.

Aria Gonzalez: Easily Impressed and Brave. I'm not sure how a baby can be brave, but there y'go. Her favourites are French music, Vegetarian lobster thermidor (???), and the colour Orange like her sister.


  1. Wow. That fire got crazy out of control for a moment there didn't it? Yikes! At least Geneva got herself in the shower.

    Yeah, you could really tell Nazari wasn't present in the moment other than in her panic. All she was worried about was jumbled past worries and incidents. :(

    Ernesto doesn't have a ton of room for upset at the moment though. He's not contributing to the household funds and Nazari didn't set the kitchen alight on purpose. Also, you've got to eat sometimes. lol

    If baby #3 wasn't on the way I'd suggest they invest in a smoke alarm, but I think they ought to save their §20 toward getting another crib. xD

    1. Lol! I know! Naz seriously had like 7 housefires as a kid, but nobody was ever on fire! Lucky Geneva. (she does have the Lucky trait, lol.)
      Poor Nazari, I guess the flames made her feel like a vulnerable kid again or something? Poor thing.

      Haha! I know, he's hot-headed, as I just said, and that was his reason for reacting how he did. This probably was the only time she's ever used the stove, and this happens...

      Haha! They actually have a smoke alarm. Nazari wasn't capable of calling anyone, so lucky that one came with the house because I always forget to put one in.
      Thanks for reading :)

  2. Vegetarian lobster? How does that work? I'm genuinely befuddled by it.

    Oh no! Fire! I felt so bad for Naz then :( (do you mind if I call her Naz? I call her Naz in my head in a way, like my reactions are like "oh no! Naz!") She really didn't have a handle on things, and it's okay for her to panic in those situations, just try to be more careful.

    I understand why Ernie was upset, but I agree with Sunny. He can't exactly be too angry at her, I mean, it wasn't like she thought "You know what would spice up this house? Some fire!"

    OOH! Baby 3 is on the way? :D Yay babies!

    1. Ugh, idk. EA didn't think things through. I'm pretty sure there's veggie steak too?

      Nah, go ahead. It's her stage name and nickname anyway. I think I made the name Nazari up anyway, so it's pretty weird to remember. But yes! Be more careful! Or stick to cereal and salad and let Ernesto cook ;)

      LOL!!! You're right, she probably didn't think that... But yeah, as I said, he's a hot-head and this is how he reacted.

      Yep! Hehe :)
      Thanks for reading

  3. I feel terrible for reading about Nazaris deeply hidden fears, and then start laughing at Geneva burning. You left out how she'll look as a teen, and slap in a picture of cute Chip so no one would notice. Nicely played...

    Ernestos a hothead? That is no excuse for beeing angry at Nazari lighting the place on fire. She could've needed his support in her state. Is she really pregnant again though? Where are they going to put it?

    1. Haha! Don't worry, I laughed too. It's pretty funny when sims set on fire... In a dark way... ;)
      I actually hadn't intended that lol. I hadn't got any pictures of Geneva as a teen when I wrote this, and as I knew what she looked like I forgot none of you would... Don't worry, I've written the next two chapters and she's in it a lot :)

      It isn't really an excuse, but I don't think he realised how much of a state she was in. He was more thinking of the fact the have no money as it is and now need a new kitchen.
      Yes she is, and I rearranged the bedroom and managed to fit them all in. Lets just hope I didn't roll 5 kids or we'll have to move... ;)
      Thanks for reading! :)

  4. I loved Nazari's inner monologues during the fire scene. Even though they were sort of sad (being nervous about Ernesto's faithfulness and etc.), I enjoyed getting a bit of insight on her character. Like you said in your Author's Note, she's got some baggage. Poor girl.

    Really looking forward to what Geneva looks like as a teen! And it's hilarious that the fireman stayed so long to be a good Samaritan, hehe.

    1. Thankyou :) And yes, poor girl!

      I really am sorry about that, I hadn't intended on leaving her out... :/
      Thanks for reading :)

  5. With all of Nazari and Ernesto's fighting lately, I hope it's not a sign of their relationship going downhill. It seems like a hint of that, but I hope not with her pregnant again.

    All of Nazari's insecurities came out with the fire, poor her. And poor Geneva. Glad she had enough wits to run to the shower.